...which you may have figured out but you never know.
This is what I tell myself when I have those "pity parties" I had in my last post. At least I have not lost my entire family, property, and home and wish to wear sack cloth or whatever that was. After all that I might feel the same way, abandoned by God, but I didn't come even close. So why all the fits? I will guess it is my greedy flesh thinking all things should be easy because afterall I am a Christian, right? Okay, some of you can stop laughing hysterically. I know the God does not promise an easy life, in fact He promises the opposite. I lose site of those promises and the even better ones like nothing can separate us from Him no matter what happens. Taking refuge in His infinite power, faithfulness, perfection soon sets everything back in order. I just wish I could remember it before I look silly throwing my little tantrums, crying "this isn't fair!".
I was reminded of how much worse everything could be recently. I have seen friends and family struggle with more difficult situations than mine. Sickness and heartache top that list. Some who deal with both, others who have more difficult times with one or the other than I. Through it all they remain faithful and I pray I can too without too many stumbles. I suppose the stumbling and coming back is what increases our maturity and faithfulness. God allows it to happen for reasons I am unaware of but still it is to His glory, because all things are.
Well, now I am rambling but things are better. It is getting better, again. I don't know why God chose to put up with me, but He did. Everyday I am reminded that I don't deserve His love and grace but I am delighted that nothing can take it away, not even my own sinful ways.