As part of the New Year I have decided the only way to avoid interruption is to rise at 4:30 AM. That's right, you heard me, 4:30 AM! Shocked? Perplexed as to why someone would do this to themselves?
Well, two reasons. 1)DH wakes up at 3:45 AM on work days. He has this weird work ethic thingy (really I like it about him) where he gets to work at least 45 minutes to 1 hour early. Maybe it is an Army thing. We like to see each other you know because we like each other so this is one way to do that. It also means we go to bed at the same time which is nice too. Being up later than him always felt so lonely and I am a morning person in my heart. Just getting the body to agree was.....difficult.
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Thursday, January 13, 2011
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
New and shiny......
is what the new year looked like to me only 5 days ago.
I love new and shiny. It is why I shop. It is why newborns are precious no matter what they do. New and shiny hold potential and a promise of future joy.
This morning was not new and shiny. It ached in my shoulders where that massage that felt great 2 days ago is now sore. It creaked in my neck where I slept funny and mocked me when I woke up 15 minutes before my 5am alarm.
Still, all those creaks and aches brought me closer to my knees as I prayed this morning. 4 days out of 365 is all I had of my own strength to do good and rise early. I wonder why it took me 4 days to realize that. I have only actually been up early for 2 days, the first two I slept in.
Is that not just like us to make more of what we did than what it actually was?
So for the rest of 2011 I pray will be spent daily on my knees every morning, praying for strentgh to get up again the next day. Because I know by evening I will have thought of another way to take credit for that which I did not do.
I love new and shiny. It is why I shop. It is why newborns are precious no matter what they do. New and shiny hold potential and a promise of future joy.
This morning was not new and shiny. It ached in my shoulders where that massage that felt great 2 days ago is now sore. It creaked in my neck where I slept funny and mocked me when I woke up 15 minutes before my 5am alarm.
Still, all those creaks and aches brought me closer to my knees as I prayed this morning. 4 days out of 365 is all I had of my own strength to do good and rise early. I wonder why it took me 4 days to realize that. I have only actually been up early for 2 days, the first two I slept in.
Is that not just like us to make more of what we did than what it actually was?
So for the rest of 2011 I pray will be spent daily on my knees every morning, praying for strentgh to get up again the next day. Because I know by evening I will have thought of another way to take credit for that which I did not do.
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